I've stepped back for a while. Today is September 7, 2011. It seems I'm waking up from my blogging coma. I've missed my little Flog! Actually, I've missed it a lot. Before my blog went dark, I had written several days worth of posts that I finally edited and posted today. It feels great to be back.
Life has slowed down and sped up at the same time. Our minds are more rested, but more opportunities have popped up. We are busy, but it doesn't feel like it. It seems every area in our life is in transition and we are totally taking it out on our house. There has been no stone left unturned. Unfortunately, the transformation required that I step away from my lovely flog for a time until I could literally plug back in. I must admit that I fell back into some old patterns just a bit. I recognize that I have even felt a tiny bit deprived and hence picked some poor food choices. I think I can relate the overindulge to my reaction to dust bunnies. Finding dust bunnies in areas of my heart just as I sweep out the dust bunnies in hidden places around the house that I haven't visited in decades. It feels good to get clean, but mess is byproduct for a time. God has been stripping sheets of yuck off me. I can literally feel it. He makes no mess, but reaction has been mess....messy eating. I underestimated the power in my daily ponder. Writing daily for me is sweeping up those dust bunnies of my heart and disposing of them in the proper place.
I think I feel a bit condemned that I couldn't "do" it on my own.....well, there is a resounding DUH! That IS the trap---I thought I could do it. I turned it into a work. I read a Chinese proverb today from a fortune cookie that somebody had taped to the nurses station at work. It said something like, "Don't rest from your duty, but in your duty find rest." (Wow, that sounds familiar. I think I know from whom they borrowed that.) It is actually ironic that in every other area, I've encountered more peace and rest, but I quit laboring to rest in my eating like I had been before I went AWOL. I've got my mind back on the journey. I haven't gained weight, but I realize now that this is equally as important to me as all the other parts of my life. I'm finding the WHOLE me in balance. It is strange though. When I say, "every part of our lives is in transformation" I mean EVERY PART. It is even creeping into our food. I've started changing the groceries I buy. Wayne even agreed that we would try vegan for a couple weeks just to see what it feels like. I'm pretty excited to morph into this state too. Not quite ready to take the plunge to vegan, but gearing up the groceries for it. We might have to tone it back to vegetarian with fish or something....we'll see what we "rest" into.
I think to get this party started right, I'm going to go back and glance at the steps on my journey...I'm going to read my blog. I mean "Flog."
Wins for today...
I'm back on track and I love it here!
Nutritional Nugget:
I know this is what we all have been waiting for! I'm going to write about colon health for a while! YIPPEE! My dad told me once that he thinks the reason I majored in nutrition is because I am so fascinated by poo. He might be right.
Have you ever been inside a colon? I can honestly say that I have. First was when I was interning at Skyline Hospital in Nashville. A colon exhibit came to visit. You crawl through the colon and learn about what a colon looks like healthy, with polyps, and with cancer. Secondly, we took a group of kids from church to the children museum in Nashville. They had an gastrointestinal exhibit with a colon slide. You climb through,(it sounds disgusting,)and then slide out through the anus. When you pop out, it makes a poop noise. It really was fantastic.
If you ever get a chance to travel through a colon. Do it!
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Day 58 Food For Thought: The Supersized Woman
I am not sure what to say or even think about this.... All I know is that this does not make me happy. I am sad that she says she enjoys what I would call bondage if I was in her shoes. I cannot judge her motives or heart, but for this single mother to make arrangements for her two sons "if" she gets ill from her weight gain must disrupt the peace in her family. I am tired of "pondering" on people's decisions that are none of my business, but something about this article pricked my heart. I can't help but feel like she is desecrating her body. I know I can only see her through the eyes of my own circumstances. It just feels like she is wrapped in bondage, and I am truly sad about that.
One day of her food diary....(I'm amazed. I really am.)
Breakfast: 6 x eggs scrambled, cooked in butter 468 cals. 1/2 pound bacon 1,168 cals, 4 x potatoes as hash browns 672 cals, 6 x pieces toast with butter 600 cals, 32 ounce cream shake 1,160 cals. Snacking 1 x bag of animal cookies 1,950 cals, 2litre bottle of soft drink 800 cals, 1 x 10.5 ounce bag of barbecue flavour crisps 1,650 cals, 3 x ham and cheese sandwiches 1,576 cals.
Lunch: 3 x beef, bean and green chilli burritos with 1 x cup of sour cream 1,453 cals. Salad (1 head lettuce, 1 cup cherry tomatoes, 1 cup carrots, 1 cucumber, 1/2 cup ranch dressing, bacon bits, 1 cup crumbled cheese, 1 cup chicken 1,479 cals.
Dinner: 12 x filled tacos + 1 x cup sour cream 4,906 cals, 2litre bottle of soda 800 cals, Dessert 8 x scoops vanilla ice cream 2,080 cals, 1 x small pan of brownies 1,200 cals.
Total: 21,962 calories
This is more than TWICE what I would need in a WHOLE WEEK! Surely there is more to life than eating.....Do I really, really, really, way-down-deep believe that?
Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2026964/Susanne-Emans-bid-worlds-fattest-woman-52st-mother-2-supersizing.html#ixzz1VXdlbDvk
Wins for Today
I ate a big beautiful breakfast. I was very hungry for it. I ate a lot, but for no other reason except that I really wanted it. There were no emotional "needs" attached. It was tasty, and I was hungry (period.) Then I met a dear friend for lunch. I was not hungry. I got a beverage and had a nice visit. That was fill enough for me. Then I went to see my fabulous aunt and uncle. They wanted take-out from town. I glared at that menu, but just had no desire for the calories. I did not order me anything. (This is a big deal for me.) Basically, I am learning to take cues from my body instead eating because it is socially acceptable or because it is just the time to eat, etc.
Nutritional Nugget:
Smoothie Tips....
Okay, so I don't have one of those fancy-shmancy smoothie machines. It usually takes using my food processor, and blender, and a ginormous, speckledy-green mess everywhere, and I mean everywhere, until I get my alligator juice. So I've come up with a few less-messy and time-saving processes.
My little kitchen motors just didn't love my frozen fruits. They just didn't. So I allowed my fruit to thaw after my kitchen aids screamed and screeched at me. As soon as it thawed, I pureed it up nice and pretty and refroze it in portion-sized freezer bags. I also went ahead and mashed my bananas that were turning and froze those the same way. I pureed up the fresh spinach, lemon, and agave nectar and froze it in ice trays then put it in freezer bags. So now all I have to do it is use my one blender, throw in a couple spinach cubes, a bag of mixed fruit, a bag of banana and any other goodness I want. Works like a charm and incredibly faster and less messy.
One day of her food diary....(I'm amazed. I really am.)
Breakfast: 6 x eggs scrambled, cooked in butter 468 cals. 1/2 pound bacon 1,168 cals, 4 x potatoes as hash browns 672 cals, 6 x pieces toast with butter 600 cals, 32 ounce cream shake 1,160 cals. Snacking 1 x bag of animal cookies 1,950 cals, 2litre bottle of soft drink 800 cals, 1 x 10.5 ounce bag of barbecue flavour crisps 1,650 cals, 3 x ham and cheese sandwiches 1,576 cals.
Lunch: 3 x beef, bean and green chilli burritos with 1 x cup of sour cream 1,453 cals. Salad (1 head lettuce, 1 cup cherry tomatoes, 1 cup carrots, 1 cucumber, 1/2 cup ranch dressing, bacon bits, 1 cup crumbled cheese, 1 cup chicken 1,479 cals.
Dinner: 12 x filled tacos + 1 x cup sour cream 4,906 cals, 2litre bottle of soda 800 cals, Dessert 8 x scoops vanilla ice cream 2,080 cals, 1 x small pan of brownies 1,200 cals.
Total: 21,962 calories
This is more than TWICE what I would need in a WHOLE WEEK! Surely there is more to life than eating.....Do I really, really, really, way-down-deep believe that?
Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2026964/Susanne-Emans-bid-worlds-fattest-woman-52st-mother-2-supersizing.html#ixzz1VXdlbDvk
Wins for Today
I ate a big beautiful breakfast. I was very hungry for it. I ate a lot, but for no other reason except that I really wanted it. There were no emotional "needs" attached. It was tasty, and I was hungry (period.) Then I met a dear friend for lunch. I was not hungry. I got a beverage and had a nice visit. That was fill enough for me. Then I went to see my fabulous aunt and uncle. They wanted take-out from town. I glared at that menu, but just had no desire for the calories. I did not order me anything. (This is a big deal for me.) Basically, I am learning to take cues from my body instead eating because it is socially acceptable or because it is just the time to eat, etc.
Nutritional Nugget:
Smoothie Tips....
Okay, so I don't have one of those fancy-shmancy smoothie machines. It usually takes using my food processor, and blender, and a ginormous, speckledy-green mess everywhere, and I mean everywhere, until I get my alligator juice. So I've come up with a few less-messy and time-saving processes.
My little kitchen motors just didn't love my frozen fruits. They just didn't. So I allowed my fruit to thaw after my kitchen aids screamed and screeched at me. As soon as it thawed, I pureed it up nice and pretty and refroze it in portion-sized freezer bags. I also went ahead and mashed my bananas that were turning and froze those the same way. I pureed up the fresh spinach, lemon, and agave nectar and froze it in ice trays then put it in freezer bags. So now all I have to do it is use my one blender, throw in a couple spinach cubes, a bag of mixed fruit, a bag of banana and any other goodness I want. Works like a charm and incredibly faster and less messy.
Day 57 Food For Thought: This Rest Stuff Works!
I read a comment by the fantabulous Bertie Britt. I cannot say that I agree with any one person 100%, but I can say I have never disagreed with anything I have heard Mr. Bertie teach. There are plenty of people who have influenced where I am today, but I think it would be accurate to say that Bertie's messages have accelerated me into right-mindedness more than anyone.
He wrote, "The wonderful thing about the Gospel is that we are set free from fruit-bearing as the ultimate goal in life. The ultimate goal is to enter His rest and then we will see HIM BEARING HIS FRUIT IN US. The emphasis is not on us to become like Him but on Him to give birth to his life in us by us simply believing in what He has done on behalf of the human race."
...beautiful.
I applied this to my weight-loss journey. I became so happy when I really did realize, "This stuff is working!" Instead of me "TRYING to improve myself...to MAKE visible efforts...and FORCE behavior modification, I have been LABORING into rest. Putting off the mentality of "I must do to become" has not exactly been easy. There is a whole LOT of ME in the way. I want to make it about me. I want to make my weight loss about how good I am. There are so many temptations to let my reflection in the mirror catapult me into "will worship." It can be hard work to walk in rest, live in contentment, accept me for me just as I am. It is very humbling to try to see myself as my Father sees me. He sees nowhere I need to improve. Did I really admit that out loud? I can see plenty of needed improvements especially when I look in the mirror or try on clothes or put on pants that are not elastic. Trying on non-stretchy pants in the fitting room with walls of mirrors is the ultimate worst opportunity for me to fall into temptation of believing I am not good enough. I HATE to shop for clothes for myself. Isn't that ironic? How does weighing too much make me feel not enough?
My ultimate goal is not to lose weight (fruit-bearing.) My goal is to live in a state of rest. The more I rest, the more HIS fruit (his reality/my reality) is born in me. I can testify to that for sure. Cares of this world, weariness, and heavy burdens weigh me down. The more weight I let go of in my soul, the more I walk in rest. The more I walk in rest, the more physical weight I lose without trying. His fruit was born in me this week as I walked in rest. I was so at rest and so enjoyed my food that I thought I must have gained weight...Nope. (Cue today's win...)
Wins for today:
I lost another pound in just four days. How could that happen? All I remember eating was a donut and some smoked sausage. I rested for the most part, and my weight loss reflects that.
My new favorite saying: This rest stuff really "works!"
Nutritional Nugget:
Another Dandy Little Greeny.
Ingredients
1 banana, cut in chunks
1 cup grapes
1 (6 ounce) tub vanilla yogurt
1/2 apple, cored and chopped
1 1/2 cups fresh spinach leaves
Directions
1.Place the banana, grapes, yogurt, apple and spinach into a blender. Cover, and blend until smooth, stopping frequently to push down anything stuck to the sides. Pour into glasses and serve.
He wrote, "The wonderful thing about the Gospel is that we are set free from fruit-bearing as the ultimate goal in life. The ultimate goal is to enter His rest and then we will see HIM BEARING HIS FRUIT IN US. The emphasis is not on us to become like Him but on Him to give birth to his life in us by us simply believing in what He has done on behalf of the human race."
...beautiful.
I applied this to my weight-loss journey. I became so happy when I really did realize, "This stuff is working!" Instead of me "TRYING to improve myself...to MAKE visible efforts...and FORCE behavior modification, I have been LABORING into rest. Putting off the mentality of "I must do to become" has not exactly been easy. There is a whole LOT of ME in the way. I want to make it about me. I want to make my weight loss about how good I am. There are so many temptations to let my reflection in the mirror catapult me into "will worship." It can be hard work to walk in rest, live in contentment, accept me for me just as I am. It is very humbling to try to see myself as my Father sees me. He sees nowhere I need to improve. Did I really admit that out loud? I can see plenty of needed improvements especially when I look in the mirror or try on clothes or put on pants that are not elastic. Trying on non-stretchy pants in the fitting room with walls of mirrors is the ultimate worst opportunity for me to fall into temptation of believing I am not good enough. I HATE to shop for clothes for myself. Isn't that ironic? How does weighing too much make me feel not enough?
My ultimate goal is not to lose weight (fruit-bearing.) My goal is to live in a state of rest. The more I rest, the more HIS fruit (his reality/my reality) is born in me. I can testify to that for sure. Cares of this world, weariness, and heavy burdens weigh me down. The more weight I let go of in my soul, the more I walk in rest. The more I walk in rest, the more physical weight I lose without trying. His fruit was born in me this week as I walked in rest. I was so at rest and so enjoyed my food that I thought I must have gained weight...Nope. (Cue today's win...)
Wins for today:
I lost another pound in just four days. How could that happen? All I remember eating was a donut and some smoked sausage. I rested for the most part, and my weight loss reflects that.
My new favorite saying: This rest stuff really "works!"
Nutritional Nugget:
Another Dandy Little Greeny.
Ingredients
1 banana, cut in chunks
1 cup grapes
1 (6 ounce) tub vanilla yogurt
1/2 apple, cored and chopped
1 1/2 cups fresh spinach leaves
Directions
1.Place the banana, grapes, yogurt, apple and spinach into a blender. Cover, and blend until smooth, stopping frequently to push down anything stuck to the sides. Pour into glasses and serve.
Day 56 Food For Thought: Skinny Behind the Wheel
I had quite a long drive home from work today. For many miles, I just meditated on what Skinny Me feels like. Our minds are powerful places. I'm pretty sure we do not have a clue of just how creative we are in the sense of actual creation. I do know that the velveteen rabbit says, "Everything created was first born in imagination." So today I imagined feeling small in the drivers seat and having clothes that felt a bit baggy. I have a feeling of satiety, but not feeling too full. At one point it really felt real. I think that happened because, well that is the reality. I feel Skinny Me more and more. I pray my eyes are opened, and I awaken to reality more everyday.
Today's Wins:
I'm beginning to love, love, love that feeling when my body really is empty of food, but before I get too hungry. Each day I experience that more and more. In the past, I hardly ever allowed myself to go there. I used to just want to eat all the time. I love it when my body tells me I am hungry instead of my mind, will, or emotions dictating when I need food.
Nutritional Nugget:
Green Smoothies
The Miss Healthy-health, Supermom, Heather Seyer taught our Grace-Full Women's class at church this great recipe that I think most of us still make on a regular basis. I have also googled "green smoothie recipe" and found some other nifties. Think the trick to this "Alligator Juice," as we call it on Blaylock Mountain, is the spinach pureed up with a a bit of sweetener and a WHOLE lemon (I usually do cut off the brown little ends and seed it, but I'm sure it is not necessary.)
Throw in the following ingredients as the spirit leads...
spinach
lemon, whole
sweetener. (Heather used Agave Nectar. So do I, but also honey would be great.)
frozen fruit
and whatever else kind of goodies you want....local bee pollen, ground flax or flax seed oil, fish oils, whatever you want.
This is really so yummy. One quart is 15 servings of fruits and veggies! WHOA!
Today's Wins:
I'm beginning to love, love, love that feeling when my body really is empty of food, but before I get too hungry. Each day I experience that more and more. In the past, I hardly ever allowed myself to go there. I used to just want to eat all the time. I love it when my body tells me I am hungry instead of my mind, will, or emotions dictating when I need food.
Nutritional Nugget:
Green Smoothies
The Miss Healthy-health, Supermom, Heather Seyer taught our Grace-Full Women's class at church this great recipe that I think most of us still make on a regular basis. I have also googled "green smoothie recipe" and found some other nifties. Think the trick to this "Alligator Juice," as we call it on Blaylock Mountain, is the spinach pureed up with a a bit of sweetener and a WHOLE lemon (I usually do cut off the brown little ends and seed it, but I'm sure it is not necessary.)
Throw in the following ingredients as the spirit leads...
spinach
lemon, whole
sweetener. (Heather used Agave Nectar. So do I, but also honey would be great.)
frozen fruit
and whatever else kind of goodies you want....local bee pollen, ground flax or flax seed oil, fish oils, whatever you want.
This is really so yummy. One quart is 15 servings of fruits and veggies! WHOA!
Day 55 Food For Thought: Comfort Carbs with Hormone Soup
Still in that tug-of-war state of presence, but I've been enlightened. The only thing I can blame this dip in the journey on is that I'm wanting comfort carbs with my big bowl of hormonal soup. Sometimes, ladies, that just happens. I've entered the short time zone when I tear up at On-star commercials and happily-ever-after animations. ...This too will pass in probably three to five days.
I look forward to the days my flesh comes back in line with my real-me/skinny me desires. I like it better when my body works for me--when we are on the same team. This morning on the way to work, I so wanted to stop and indulge in some old habits. I'm happy I decided to discuss this with myself first. Those tasty saturated fats would not be worth it. I don't feel deprived. I just feel like I took a detour around a regret. At times like these when I'm glaring into the past, (the opposite direction of where Skinny Me is headed,) I feel like I'm dragging myself along. My flesh is like a distracted little kid. I feel like I'm walking along holding hands with a kid who decides they don't want to walk forward anymore. They get distracted and start looking and twisting everywhere or grow weary from walking and drag their feet so that you have to carry them by one arm. The distraction becomes more noticeable than the path, but you still travel forward.
I am the boss of this body! I will NOT be lead by my flesh (anymore.) "Yes, I'll have a bowl of hormonal soup with a large side of anything deep-fried and a whole chocolate cake." No, no, no! Straighten up, Youngun!
Wins For Today:
At least there is now a reason. I am disciplining my flesh. Flesh just wants to check to see who is in charge. I respond with a salad.
Nutritional Nugget:
Here's an old party trick. I don't know why, but it seems to work. If you know you have eaten your fill, but there are still too many tempting munchies? Brush your teeth. For some reason the hint of minty freshness makes you not want to eat anymore.
I look forward to the days my flesh comes back in line with my real-me/skinny me desires. I like it better when my body works for me--when we are on the same team. This morning on the way to work, I so wanted to stop and indulge in some old habits. I'm happy I decided to discuss this with myself first. Those tasty saturated fats would not be worth it. I don't feel deprived. I just feel like I took a detour around a regret. At times like these when I'm glaring into the past, (the opposite direction of where Skinny Me is headed,) I feel like I'm dragging myself along. My flesh is like a distracted little kid. I feel like I'm walking along holding hands with a kid who decides they don't want to walk forward anymore. They get distracted and start looking and twisting everywhere or grow weary from walking and drag their feet so that you have to carry them by one arm. The distraction becomes more noticeable than the path, but you still travel forward.
I am the boss of this body! I will NOT be lead by my flesh (anymore.) "Yes, I'll have a bowl of hormonal soup with a large side of anything deep-fried and a whole chocolate cake." No, no, no! Straighten up, Youngun!
Wins For Today:
At least there is now a reason. I am disciplining my flesh. Flesh just wants to check to see who is in charge. I respond with a salad.
Nutritional Nugget:
Here's an old party trick. I don't know why, but it seems to work. If you know you have eaten your fill, but there are still too many tempting munchies? Brush your teeth. For some reason the hint of minty freshness makes you not want to eat anymore.
Day 54 Food For Thought: Chips and Roller Coaster Dip
I am driving myself crazy. I do not know what I want. I have a plan that Fat Me doesn't feel like following today. I eat salad and dream of saturated fats that deep down I know I do not want. I am in a tug of war with myself. I, the real me, the deep down me, desires weight loss and the good choices that accompany it. The flesh-driven fat me is craving overeating like it wants to gain weight. What in the world?
Sometimes this journey seems more like a roller coaster ride than a walk. Thankfully the peeks and valleys seem to be growing farther apart and leveling out. The past day or two has been a bit of a struggle with my flesh. I feel like I've come off the peek that I've been on for weeks and starting to take a dip. I'm content. (I keep checking myself.) I don't want junk because of some turbulent or exhilarating outside circumstance affecting my emotions. I have been sleepy, and I know that always influences my want of food. I really do not have a rhyme or a reason. All I know is that I've been thinking about things like hot fudge cakes instead of green smoothies. I'm still choosing the green-smoothie type options, but I'm having to watch myself because my heart just isn't in it today. My body is remembering old habits and desires. I'm not in a wrong state of mind or anything. I just am food-focused today. All I can say is, Thank God for a plan in place and his grace to keep me where I, the real me, wants to be.
Wins for today.
Well, I'm choosing the straight-and-narrow even though I feel like I'm on the fat-and-bendy. Taking the first exit OFF!
Nutritional Nugget
I read once (not sure where) that chewing gum increases appetite because of mouth stimulation. I'm not sure on the accuracy of that, but it is something to consider. There may be some of us out there who find that we do desire food more when we chew gum more. Maybe not.
Sometimes this journey seems more like a roller coaster ride than a walk. Thankfully the peeks and valleys seem to be growing farther apart and leveling out. The past day or two has been a bit of a struggle with my flesh. I feel like I've come off the peek that I've been on for weeks and starting to take a dip. I'm content. (I keep checking myself.) I don't want junk because of some turbulent or exhilarating outside circumstance affecting my emotions. I have been sleepy, and I know that always influences my want of food. I really do not have a rhyme or a reason. All I know is that I've been thinking about things like hot fudge cakes instead of green smoothies. I'm still choosing the green-smoothie type options, but I'm having to watch myself because my heart just isn't in it today. My body is remembering old habits and desires. I'm not in a wrong state of mind or anything. I just am food-focused today. All I can say is, Thank God for a plan in place and his grace to keep me where I, the real me, wants to be.
Wins for today.
Well, I'm choosing the straight-and-narrow even though I feel like I'm on the fat-and-bendy. Taking the first exit OFF!
Nutritional Nugget
I read once (not sure where) that chewing gum increases appetite because of mouth stimulation. I'm not sure on the accuracy of that, but it is something to consider. There may be some of us out there who find that we do desire food more when we chew gum more. Maybe not.
Day 53 Food For Thought: Does the Scale Weigh On You?
One way to tell if you are enslaved to the scale is if you weigh yourself daily or more than once a day. Is the scale always on your mind? If you can't wait to weight, or if you dread the scale, it is probably not your friend. I have even read that people with eating disorders weigh themselves multiple times a day. One of the goals to try to set for them is to only weigh once a week.
Once I thought about giving our scale to consignment because I could tell I was sort of addicted to it. The numbers it read to me became my identity. It was really sick-weird. If I gained weight, it made me only want to eat more because I felt condemned and trapped in my weight. If I lost weight, I wanted to eat for celebration. I'm glad I didn't get rid of our scale now because I would just be buying a new one. It is just another tool. I have gone weeks and weeks on this journey without thinking to weigh. Last week I weighed twice, and I didn't realize I had already weighed that week. It is an accessory to my path, but it is not a reflection of it. The weightless feelings I have on the inside me are "worth the weight." I am glad, however, that I have lost some poundage. But I realize that it is a reflection of the heavy I have laid down.
Wins For Today
Today I drank a cola. I consider it a win that I cannot remember the last cola I had before today. I have not even missed any.
Ok all you Healthful-eating Skinnies. Can you help us out? (Don't be so modest...you know who you are!) I would love to post a daily food record of someone at a healthy weight. If you do not mind helping out, write down everything and the amount of what you eat during a day. Even times you eat would be helpful. The more detailed the better. Let's see how Skinny Me's eat on a regular day. I think menu ideas would help the Fat Me's a lot.
Nutritional Nugget:
So this is how our plate is "supposed" to measure out when planning for a meal. The thing is, it is not a PLATTER. It is like a regular plate. When portioned properly, you could still fit half the family-reunion-sides in there somewhere. We have trained ourselves to think we must eat more than we need. This is just a guide.
Once I thought about giving our scale to consignment because I could tell I was sort of addicted to it. The numbers it read to me became my identity. It was really sick-weird. If I gained weight, it made me only want to eat more because I felt condemned and trapped in my weight. If I lost weight, I wanted to eat for celebration. I'm glad I didn't get rid of our scale now because I would just be buying a new one. It is just another tool. I have gone weeks and weeks on this journey without thinking to weigh. Last week I weighed twice, and I didn't realize I had already weighed that week. It is an accessory to my path, but it is not a reflection of it. The weightless feelings I have on the inside me are "worth the weight." I am glad, however, that I have lost some poundage. But I realize that it is a reflection of the heavy I have laid down.
Wins For Today
Today I drank a cola. I consider it a win that I cannot remember the last cola I had before today. I have not even missed any.
Ok all you Healthful-eating Skinnies. Can you help us out? (Don't be so modest...you know who you are!) I would love to post a daily food record of someone at a healthy weight. If you do not mind helping out, write down everything and the amount of what you eat during a day. Even times you eat would be helpful. The more detailed the better. Let's see how Skinny Me's eat on a regular day. I think menu ideas would help the Fat Me's a lot.
Nutritional Nugget:
So this is how our plate is "supposed" to measure out when planning for a meal. The thing is, it is not a PLATTER. It is like a regular plate. When portioned properly, you could still fit half the family-reunion-sides in there somewhere. We have trained ourselves to think we must eat more than we need. This is just a guide.
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